I Am Strong Enough

Recently my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer. Getting this news was like knocking the air from me. Not only is she my Mamaw, but she is one of my very best friends ever. I have always been extremely close to my Mamaw and Papa. I literally spent the entire day crying. I feel like a little girl all over again and all I want to do is crawl up in her chair and sit with her while she holds me. I want to go back and relive all those beautiful moments with her while growing up.

In addition to her having cancer, my Papa has had cancer for a couple of years now. It is somewhere in his body, but they can't find it. On the outside he seems perfectly healthy and strong. But knowing that somewhere in his body is this horrible cancer is downright terrifying to me.

The day we got the news of my Mamaw's cancer I wanted to talk to her. So I called her. All I did was cry. And each time I've talked to her since, all I do is cry. When I got off the phone with her today, I sat in the chair crying out to God, God, I am not strong enough for this! I can't do this. I can't stop the tears. God help! Help my Mamaw! Help my Papa! Help our family! God please! God immediately reminded me of this verse:

And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you,

for My strength is made perfect in weakness."

2 Corinthians 12:9

I don't have to be strong. My Mamaw doesn't have to be strong. My Papa doesn't have to be strong. None of us have to be. God is! When we are weak, His power is made perfect.

I don't know why God chose my Mamaw or my Papa to walk this journey. I don't know why this has happened in our family. But I do know that God is still God. He goes before us. He's already there and He knows His ultimate plan. I know that He is strong when we are weak.

This song by Matthew West is my song right now. I think it will be my song for a long time to come.

Will you please hold our family in prayer? Especially my Mamaw and Papa.

I thought it quite fitting that the theme of this month's Illustrated Faith kit is I Am Strong. I have a feeling this kit will get a lot of use in my quiet time.

The I Am Strong kit includes:
• 14 day devotional
• 1 orange stamp pad
• I clear stamp collection with 1 sheet of cut outs
• 1 roll of washi tape
• 1 package of 3 Scripture cards
• 1 giant sticker
• 1 bow clippy

I love the stamps! They say things like be brave, I am strong enough, and You are my strength. All great reminders. And the bright orange is super cute for summer time.

To visit Dayspring and order your own I Am Strong kit, click the image below: